I have had the biggest regret in my entire life. And it’s you. It’s always been you. I don’t know if it’s forever, because you know what they say, “there’s no forever”. But anyway, you’re “IT”. This throne will not be taken away from you. I can’t guarantee anything but as of this moment, you own it.
I don’t know if you are going to be able to read this. It’s okay if you didn’t. It’s alright if you did. In any sense, this is for you.
We’ve never spoken again ever since and yes, I still feel bad the way that I treated you. I’m not totally honest with you and for the record; I didn’t play with your feelings. I told you anything that I could possibly think of so that you’d know my side of the story. Maybe I don’t care if you believe me or not but at least I told you my part.
I know it doesn’t make any sense at that time. I thought that I’m ready again but I’m not. Maybe I’m scared enough to tell you that what we have going on is a good thing for me. You were there for me when I needed someone. You have been there for me, without asking anything in return. Thank you and I’m sorry.
It’s been tough on you. You just wanted me to be happy. I didn’t give you the happiness part. Instead, I hurt you. Again. For the nth time. I have decided to leave you be. For good. I’ve been saying this for so many times now and I still can’t seem to move on. That’s the reason why I have given myself a deadline, that I need to stop bothering you if you have a new girlfriend. Even though you don’t have one right now, I’ll try to start to stop.
It’s been a while since I’ve remembered how happy we were when we’re together. It’s the greatest thing that happened to me. There’s never a time when we have the longest fight.
Hey, please… do me a favor. I know you’re now happy with your life and you’re trying to move on. But please, for me… find the girl of your dreams or wait for your fate to come. Maybe this is not yet the right time for you… and we never know what comes next.
Pick the most beautiful girl that will make you wish why you have never seen her before. Choose the one who’ll make you a hundred times more confident about yourself. Love someone who will also love you the way you love her. Be with her for the rest of your life. Right there and then, I’ll be able to let you go and move on, because I know someone else is gonna make you the most luckiest guy in the whole world.
Make sure that I’m nothing like her. Make sure that she’s the one. Make sure that you’re gonna take care of her. Make sure to not compare her with anybody.
And make sure that you’ll never let her go this time. No matter what. Fight for her. Don’t ever give up!
I’ll be glad to see you with someone who’ll put a smile on your face instead of someone like me who’s not worth your time. I’m not worthy of your time and effort. So choose wisely, listen to your heart then let your mind show you the path that you should’ve taken in the first place.
I don’t want us to have any bad feelings for each other anymore. I know it will take time and I’ll take my chances. I’ll wait for us to be friends again.
“I have loved you. I did my best…” – The Theory of Everything