october 21, 2013… this is the day that everything is over between us. i’m not going to blog this event out, but there’s something that i wished for that i just wanted to share.. on that day.
that’s the last time that we talked. the last time that i saw his face. and to be honest… i missed him. i miss him.
i tossed a coin on to one of the finest fountains on mall of asia. then i made a wish.
i thought to myself that, maybe, somehow, or someday… if we really were meant for each other, we will cross our paths once again. we’ll be able to forget on what happened on that day, when we’re still kids and can be together in the future.
he actually asked what i really wished for but i didn’t tell him. oh well, blogging it out right now might gave him the idea and maybe he’ll read this. i don’t know. well anyway, i’ve already hurt him. and now it’s over.
at present, we still have communication. and i don’t want to answer his questions or any of his doubts. i wanna leave it this way. i don’t wanna comment on this kind of situation.
he was never a bother, but i just don’t like him to know what i have in mind. i want to let him be. be on his way and live the life that he wanted it to be. and it’s without me.
right now i want to focus on my priorities, and i want him to think on his own too. maybe and yes… i know that the biggest regret that i have is that i have broken up with him and for the purpose of giving him the life that he deserve. the life that he didn’t have without me. the life that he can manage to do on his own. i admire his love and generosity of letting me go. i know it’s not easy for me to give him up but on the back of my mind… i have to. it’s for his own good and not mine. i’m still hurt that i don’t have him in my life anymore, and for those 3 years, 8 months and 3 days, i didn’t regret it. i really love him from the bottom of my heart and my heart will always love him. there will be some changes because we have to adjust.
we need to know that our relationship didn’t exist anymore, but that’s why i wished that maybe, somehow, or someday…
if God intends to let our roads diverged into one, then so be it.. if not, that’s alright too. there are things that you have to let go and some things that you have to give up. and those things are the ones where you can learn your lessons from.
past will never be a regret.
doing something that you should have done but you didn’t is.
this part of the deal is really challenging and somewhat can give you the idea that even the greatest love story will end, but if it’s really that great it will find a way to continue the story.
love is not complicated. the people in that situation are.
This has been the biggest regret of my life until now. But if ever that he’s now happy without me, that’s perfectly fine. I’ll respect it.
my real wish is to be with him for the rest of my life if we’re really meant for each other. We’re still young… Time will tell. We’ll just have to wait and see for us to find out.
– this post is originally published on the 6th of November 2013